While I'm Waiting

This is a song by John Waller(Look it up on iTunes, so you can hear it). This song meant a lot to me when we were trying to get pregnant and having a little difficulty. But it takes on way more meaning now. I guess you could say this is becoming my life song. I think that this is the first time in my life, that I have had to truly, purposefully had to rely on my faith in God to get through something. I don't know how anyone could go through this kind of a situation with out having the hope that the Creator can bring. God has a purpose for everyone, including every baby. I have to trust that God has a greater plan for our little baby. Our hope is that we, and our little baby would bring Glory to Him.

While I'm Waiting
I'm waiting. I'm waiting on you Lord, and I am hopeful.
I'm waiting on you Lord, though it is painful, but patiently I will wait.
I will move ahead bold and confident taking every step in obedience.

While I'm waiting I will serve You,
while I'm waiting I will worship,
while I'm waiting I will not fade,
I'll be running the race, even while I wait.

I'm waiting. I'm waiting on you Lord, and I am peaceful.
I am waiting on you Lord, though its not easy, no, but faithfully I will wait.
Yes I will wait, and I will move ahead bold and confident, taking every step in obedience.

While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not fade,
I'll be running the race even while I wait.
I will move ahead bold and confident, I'll be taking every step in obedience.


-Leigh Anne

5 weeks, 4 days

Throughout pregnancy, events happen that are beyond our control. Events that shape our character, rattle our confidence, and remind us of our frail condition. Unfortunately, one of those events happened to us on Sunday morning: we miscarried.

God allows us to walk through events in life, not around them. We think our wealth, skills and abilities, and status allows us to avoid those events. But, God uses these events to bring clarity, prove Who is in control, stretch us beyond what we thought we could previously attain, and ultimately strengthens our character.

We ask that you do three things for us while we walk through this:

1) Pray for continued health for Leigh Anne, as she is the one who physically and emotionally feels the pain of miscarriage.

2) Find the silver lining in rough times: After trying for months, now we know we can get pregnant!

3) Slow down, take notice of, and hug your loved ones a bit tighter.

We want to thank those folks who celebrated our pregnancy with us and look forward to celebrating with you again soon.

--Joshua and Leigh Anne Mears

Gender Neutral Background?

Leigh Anne and I were discussing the purpose of this blog the other night. Essentially, we wanted to keep family and friends in the loop concerning our pregnancy. Rather than send out updates or pictures (we'll almost always forget to update someone), it is just easier to post it here and make it your responsibility to follow up.

However, I happened to notice that the background appears to be a bit feminine. I explained to LA that we don't even know the sex of the baby yet, so I thought it would be a good idea to make a different background. I was informed that green bows and white polka dots is gender neutral!

Take the poll to the left and let me know what you think!

--Joshua

1st Doctors Appointment

I had my first doctors appointment this morning! For the first appointment you don't actually have to have an appointment, you just show up! So I set my alarm for 9:00am, got ready, grabbed a baggy full of cheerios and some cranberry juice and off I went! I didn't even get have way there, maybe ate 10 cheerios and I started feeling sick. I was driving by myself, so I was convincing myself that I was fine, but then I got really HOT! Panic stuck in....where in the world am I going to be able to pull off quick enough off of Wendover (the most heavily traveled road here in Greensboro). Well I decided that the closest parking lot would do...Biscuitville! Luckily there were some parking spots that faced the woods. I barely got my door open before I got sick right out of the car! I mean really the first time I get morning sickness has to be when I am driving by myself! I got my act back together and headed for the doctors office. When I got there they did a pregnancy test, the nurse said "I got the same thing you did!" (I was sitting in the waiting area in the back of the office, so she could just say anything!). I ran into Dr. Richardson in the hall and I told her "it worked", she was excited and congratulated me! Then they took me into a room and asked me the basic "are you basically healthy" questions and gave me a FAQ pamphlet. That was it. But my ultrasound appointment is scheduled for February 4th. It seems like forever away! I just cant wait to be able to see my little one and the cute little heart beat!

Happy New Years!

So we thought that we would be able to find out if we were pregnant on Christmas Day, so Christmas morning we took a test....BFN(big fat negative!). So when we got home from Raleigh on Sunday we took another test...again a BFN! Finally third times a charm...we took one on New Years Eve and it was POSITIVE!!!!!! Happy New Year to us! After having so many negatives we were becoming pros at reading the test. When we first took it, of course the stupid negative line popped right up, dark as could be! "Dang you negative line!" Then slowly but surely the second line started showing up! All we could say was "its there, its there, its totally there"!!! We were able to have dinner together but then I(LA) had to go to work! That was the longest night ever! I couldn't wait to be able to share our great news! We were going to try to not tell for a little bit but I couldn't stand it any longer. After convincing Josh and coming up with a fun way to share with our immediate families, we started the calls! After we said "Happy New Years", we asked them if they had any new years resolutions. Everyone said no and then we said "we have one for you, how about being a ___________(ex.grandma, aunt, uncle etc!)!!!! We got some great responses from everyone! We decided we needed to stop telling till we went to the doctors appt on Friday. So everyone was told to hold on to the secret! Well, Friday came and my doctor wasn't in the office so I have to go on Monday for my first appt! But we(ok-ME!) of course couldn't wait till monday to tell aunts/uncles and grandparents! So to the phone we went! Seriously No more telling people until we go the doctor on Monday, then Monday night we will tell our small group!